Dinner Music

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Friends over for dinner last night–first official dinner party in the house, I suppose. It was a happy nod to A Pig in Provence and my memories of similarly market-fresh meals I made on our too-short stays in the south of France. Salade nicoise, with Italian tuna in oil, farmer’s market fingerling potatoes and fresh eggs, haricots verts from the new Trader Joe’s, a favorite Zinfandel and a poppy seed cake made from a recipe card I’d copied out in college. (It’s a satisfying cake to make–you soak the seeds in milk and thinly slice the lemon zest and make the egg whites stand tall like ghostly paperdolls.)

Delicious dinner. Then talked turned to whether or not grumpy–or worse!–people can make good art. And obviously they can. Edgar Allen Poe was probably no prince. Years ago I taught in a school where the history teacher’s mother had known Robert Frost and apparently had had nothing good to say about his parenting skills. Pound was just a little more than problematic. Yeats ended up proposing to Maud Gonne’s daughter after she turned him down time and again. There are many, many more contemporary examples best left uncited. So why do I turn a blind eye on writers, but hold composer’s to a higher standard? Could it have anything to do with the fact that I’m a writer, not a musician? I’m sure not…

But ever since I found out that Debussy tried to kill his wife, then tried to rob her, thinking she was already dead (she wasn’t; things then went from bad to worse), I just don’t hear “Afternoon of a Faun” with a sympathetic ear. I adore “Les Nuits d’Ete,” those evocative songs of Berlioz about longing, love and desire. But once I learned about his totally whacked-out obsession with Harriet Smithson, I confess I hear them differently. And Carlo Gesualdo murdering his first-cousin wife and her lover? Well, my dinner guest friends, both musicians, are trying to convince me to listen to the Good Friday Responsories with a more open mind.

They can keep working on me. But I may hold on to my double-standard. I can always claim that I think musicians are called to a higher expression of art and so therefore ought to be better people for it. I doubt I really mean that. I may just be making excuses for writers. And hoping musicians–though I know better than to expect this–toe my randomly determined moral line!

Where Some of the Wild Things Are

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I suffer from a predictable francophilia. It’s true. I’m a sucker for the language. Not only does it sound good, it feels good to speak. I’m a Tour de France junkie, even though I really don’t understand the way it works. I know the geography of the country almost the way I know my home state. And if someone offered me the chance tomorrow to jump on a plane and head to the Dordogne or back to Provence or Languedoc, I’d say mais, oui, pack my bag and Xanax (mais, oui, I have a fear of flying) and go.

But it’s also easy to romanticize a place. When I was in Provence in 2006 I rented a house, La Colle, that was twenty minutes down a ‘white road’ (which translates from the English into ‘narrow, rock-studded, rain-gutted, wildlife-infested track not suitable for a rental car’). This was accessed after climbing into the mountains on successively smaller roads and making a right turn at the petrol pump. A petrol pump. Not a gas station. The house itself was an old barn with a stone vault where the animals were kept and though it had been skillfully re-habbed, there was nothing to be done about the scorpions and wolf spiders, wasps and mice, frequent thunderstorms and power outages and general shortage of water. I confess I didn’t last the week there. In fact, I made an exquisite ratatouille with produce picked up at the market in Forcalquier, the last outpost of civilization, spent an unquiet night and drove back to Arles the next day, thankfully never having had to use the epi-pen on a scorpion bite.

I thought of La Colle when I re-read A Pig in Provence over the weekend. Georgeanne Brennan’s thoughtful memoir describes the years she and her first husband (and children) spent in Provence in the 1970′s (in other words, way before the Peter Mayle-ing of Provence). They came to make goat cheese, having no previous experience or know-how and though they lived in the Alpes-Maritime and La Colle is in the Luberon, both places, at the time Brennan lived there, were thoroughly rural and rugged. Her affection for the land and nostagia for the fascinating experiment–she and her husband did succeed as cheese-makers, but circumstances forced them back to California after a few years and she has not lived there full time since–make compelling reading. The first time I read it, I had fantasies of doing something similar in a similarly outback part of Provence or Languedoc. But as with Carol Drinkwater’s captivating memoir, The Olive Farm, the harsh realities of living off the land, as well as the sheer work and expense involved can never be either fully obscured nor fully captured by the prose.

Reading A Pig in Provence this time, with its detailed descriptions of a sheep’s breech birth, the annual pig slaughter and the rugged transhumance–the shepherding of large herds of sheeps and goats from lower Provence to the mountains of Haute Provence–remind me that I never made it through a week at La Colle and that it takes a person of resilience, devotion and a writerly’s eye to pen such a memoir.

Don’t Eff with the Ineffable

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If there is anything missing in the vitriolic debates about the relative worth/worthlessness of religion, it’s the question of the ineffable.

Thomas Aquinas, after a life in spent crafting his Summa Theologica in which he aimed to answer the question of God’s purpose for creation and in what ways we are to exist in it, died having declared his philosophical works useless compared to a beatific vision he had later in his short life.

Kierkegaard, that melancholy Dane, spilled more ink than tears as he tried to explain why the ultimate is inexpressible and that the meaning of life is to surrender to that which cannot be described with words.

Schopenhauer, too, devoted roughly 500,000 words to describe the Will, this thing that no words can capture. But he further claimed the sacred writing of the Upanishads to have been the solace in his life as well as in his death.

There is a lot of ink spilled trying to describe the ineffable.

Writer, philosopher and composer Roger Scruton describes the experience of reading a book Music and the Ineffable by Vladimir Jankélévitch. It’s a book he describes as ‘mercifully short.’ But not short enough, actually:

[Jankelevitch’s] “argument is stated on the first page  — namely, that since music works through melodies, rhythms and harmonies and not through concepts, it contains no messages that can be translated into words. There follows 50,000 words devoted to the messages of music — often suggestive, poetic and atmospheric words, but words nevertheless, devoted to a subject that no words can capture.”

Music does seem to be a chrysalis for disclosing the ineffable.  Driving home the other night I heard the Kronos Quartet’s version of “The Fly-Freer,” a haunting tone poem written by Sigur Rose for an Icelandic avant-garde rock group, arranged for strings by Stephen Prutsman.

Driving through the darkness, hearing the strings swirl and spiral, and shriek and whisper—and of course, they weren’t doing any such things; there were no shapes to see, no voices to hear—I had one of those moments. You know those moments. Something is being told to you. You don’t know what it is. You don’t know the teller. You don’t need to know either.

To paraphrase Shakespeare, the experience is all.

And maybe that’s how musical chestnuts become just that. So many people experience those moments with the same piece of music that, even as they become over-played and familiar, the music still transports the hearer. Think the choral movement of Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony. Think the Brahms Violin Concerto. Think Miles Davis on “Blue in Green.” Hell, think the Allman Brothers and “Jessica” or Passion Pit and “Sleepyhead.”

You know you’ve had those moments. Those wordless moments.

Poets, those runesmiths of words, do seem to fare better putting the unspeakable into language. Rilke could do it. Shakespeare could do it. The French surrealists did it, making color virtually visible in their words. Somehow.

Roger Scruton describes it this way:  “These moments are precious to us. When they occur it is as though, on the winding ill-lit stairway of our life, we suddenly come across a window, through which we catch sight of another and brighter world — a world to which we belong but which we cannot enter.”

So why, amidst all the shouting and barking–pro and con–about religious faith do we find so little reference to and appreciation of, the experience of the ineffable? Neither those demanding religion be respected nor those who demand, equally, that it be discarded seem to notice what their arguments are leaving out: those moments, the ones that defy language, but which we feel when we experience them.

Scruton goes on: Like my philosophical predecessors, I want to describe that world beyond the window, even though I know that it cannot be described, but only revealed. I am not alone in thinking that world to be real and important. But there are many who dismiss it as an unscientific fiction. And people of this scientistic cast of mind are distasteful to me. Their nerdish conviction that facts alone can signify, and that the “transcendental” and the external are nothing but words, mark them out as incomplete. There is an aspect of the human condition that is denied to them. 

And what of these wondrous moments that, if we are truly alive, we truly feel? Do they settle the question, do they stem the arguing, do they reason us into the understanding of meaning?

No, they don’t.

It’s futile to think they will. Or that we will, by any other means, reduce the authentic richness of human experiences to a set of precepts, a systematic coding.

Better, possibly, to trade in arrogance for wonder, supposition for ignorance, certainty for curiosity.

Better, perhaps, to listen to the brief advice of Aquinas: “that whereof we cannot speak, we must consign ourselves to silence.”

Bats Amore

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Okay, not.

Six weeks into this lovely, historic house and there have been three bats. Three in three weeks, in fact. This troubled me so much that yesterday my therapist and I told bat stories to each other which I take as evidence that I no longer need therapy; but I do need a Bat Guy (which I, in fact, have because in my last house there were eight bats in four years–still better than three in three weeks so I guess I used to be lucky in that department).

This morning’s bat clung tenaciously to the stucco ceiling in the dining room as if begging for an invite to a dinner party. Fat chance, creeper. I went out to do errands and generally avoid all contact. But I ended up buying a black blouse with white buttons and it wasn’t until later that I thought maybe I was emulating my wildlife nemesis, getting in touch with that inner feral mammal who is able to do more than keen into the cell phone for back-up help to get the dreaded chauve-souris (yep, that’s bat in French, folks) out of the bedroom.

Baby Blogger on Board

Yep, this is the maiden voyage. I don’t know what I’m doing. But that doesn’t mean this shouldn’t be scintillating reading. (Gimme a moment while I spell check that word.) I had a request from a friend today to help him find some verbally wacky, ideally public-domain religious poets for him to set to music. I thought of Schoenberg composing a setting for Pierre Lunaire (which doesn’t need music) and it brought me to think of the brilliant crazies–John Clare, Christopher Smart–and the more creatively semi-sane–Gerard Manley Hopkins–and maybe some Auden. Have to spend a little more time thinking, but welcoming responses. Anybody know much Anna Swir beyond “I Talk to my Body”? (which I adore).

 

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